I used to carry a paper bag
with me, to breathe into.
It’s true. I kept it right here
beside me, and I used it
at red lights, to keep
the panic down. I had
a whole system of
back roads and no
left turns, or at least
none without arrows.
I was hypnotized a few times,
laid out in a recliner, told that
my car was a sanctuary, a place
of great peace. I drifted along
on that idea, and then
went back to back roads
and paper bags. One day,
I got on this interstate, I-70,
by accident, merged onto it
while I was thinking about
something else. And that’s
what did it, I guess. No bag
since then, and I can pretty much
drive anywhere, make left turns
whenever I want. Sometimes
I imagine we’re all white blood cells,
platelets, I don’t know—something
in the blood—moved by a great
muscle, a heart I can’t see
but can feel. Shift into drive,
foot on the gas, breathe once,
drop into the bloodstream.
Go.